| 27 things you should know about Audrey. |
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1. I'm not REALLY asian.
2. I'm constantly daydreaming
3. I think the world is a much better place than it appears to be.
4. I want to plant a tree in every state in the U.S just so i can say I've done it.
5. I'm NOT scared to fall in love.
6. There are two things I absolutely need/ desire in life: To love and be loved ( by someone other than my family ofcourse)
7. I don't like to party.
8. I love gettogethers with my really close friends.
9. I believe I was a fish in the past life.
10. I want to learn how to play the guitar.
11. I think i care too much.
12. I'm not a pushover. I just forgive easily. -_-
13. I have the biggest sweet tooth ever!
14. Chances are, if i've met you and had a one min conversation with you once, i will most likely never forget you.
15. I look forward to being a mother and having a family.
16. I'm extremely touchy with the ones i love.
17. I actually like studying :X. (except when it comes to math)
18. I'm a sucker for a sweet talker. (unless the person just sucks at sweet talking)
19. I have a pretty good sense of judgement.
20. I want a small, meaningful tattoo.
21. I wear boyshorts.
22. I don't shave my legs.
23. I'm extremely sensitive.
24. I like geeks.
25. I wish i was whiter.
26. I take pictures of everything
27. I have a fat bottom lip that i hate :(
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[09 Dec 2008|09:01pm] |
I haven't been on this in agesss. Anyway, the semester is finally coming to an end and I'm glad to say i've made friends with some pretty amazing people that i plan on keeping in touch with AND I'm finishing with Amazingg grades(except math)! Go me! I really cannot wait for winter break, not particularly because of the Holidays but more for the fact that I can really relax and do things i've been really wanting to do. Ie; read, lounge around my house, and go out w/e i want without worrying about assignments. Did i mention my mom is going to be OUT OF TOWN? wooooo
Yep, yep. Should be fun. I've come to realize that I'm getting wayy to old for gift lists but i made one anyway. Some things aren't really things i want or need, but i'm throwing it out there.
1. A quilt from urban :O (too bad they're all dry clean)
2. Fish eye camera or the old school cams ( also from urban) hint hint HAHA
3. A macbook, even though i already have a laptop ( i know, i'm REALLY just throwing it out there)
4. a cute lamp ^.^
5. Wall-E dvd, DCFC Plans cd, and a popular songs sheet music book for violins.
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY: ♥ ^.^
Did i mention I LOVE simplicity? I mean, it's so easy to please me. Worse comes to worst, a pot of daisies that i can grow and give all my love too is fine.
I know, i'm boring. Fuck me, right?
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[17 Sep 2008|11:55pm] |
I must have heard this song about 3546 times this week. and I'm NOT exaggerating.
oh yeah, anyway,
my week? productive and slightly frustrating.
mom's birthday, haircut, leaving campus and running errands, Barnes and Nobles, green tea fraps, some 'me' time, maxing out my debit card at Urban/on sushi, energizing smoothies, a lot of studying, finishing up a book I WANT to read, and more MGMT <3
I really don't see myself breaking this routine for a loooong while. Atleast, not until the semester ends.
p.s guys in rock bands are sooooo high school. Get a REAL job and hold some real ambitions please? i also hate those hey-shawtie-i- think-ur-cute-lemme-holla guys that approach me in school. where are the thoughtful, scrawny and timid boys?
just a thought. ;)
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After five minutes, the excitement faded and I felt like a puppet that was doing things and moving in certain ways beyond my control. I was kissing him just to kiss him. It takes more than sweet talk and an excuse to even let it escalate to anything more. The lack of passion I had let out that moment manifested my true wants and feelings.
I was fine until you came along.
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| This week. |
[30 Aug 2008|12:46am] |
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This week was exactly what I had anticipated it to be. It was filled with a kind of nervousness that made me anxious and scared all at once. After driving for only a week, I took my driving exam anyway, and passed. So lately, when something had to be done, I went ahead and did it on my own. I felt so independent, so free, so.. grown up. My first day of college went really well. So far, I have a pretty good feeling about my professors. Although, my English teacher reminds me of a male version of Mrs. Fenner, I couldn't help but get excited when he was talking about how we were suppose to free write all the time and by doing so, you should be able to get a good grade. I love free writing, reading, and organizing, so I think I'll do well. I made sure to sit in the front of the classroom for all of my classes. My last class that day was music appreciation, and although the comments made on ratemyprofessor.com about the teacher were mostly bad, I'm still excited to see how it goes. He came to my job today and I went ahead and introduced myself to him and told him how I really liked his first class and that i was really looking forward to expanding my appreciation for music. He was excited to hear that I play an instrument, and hopefully, him walking into my job was an opportunity that was given to me so something GOOD will come out of it. I have much to look forward to this semester. I still hang out with the same group of friends from senior year(during my hour breaks, I spent leaving campus to play pool or grab lunch w/ them), and I've reconnected with some old ones that graduated earlier than me. In the next month, I definitely look forward to keeping myself busy w/ school, saving money(for real this time), making new friends, and learning how to drive the car I'm suppose to be driving. I've never really given myself much credit, but I did it. I'm actually making a transition from being this dependent eighteen year old to an actual young adult. I hope things remain constant and if not, get even better. It's definitely helping me get rid of all the bitterness I've had stored in me all summer.
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[18 Aug 2008|06:21pm] |
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As i looked outside my window at the swaying trees and dark sky, i wrote something. It may seem weird, but the greyness and dreariness of the weather inspired me.
I'm going to stop running in circles, I will break the mold.
I will keep my head high, from now until i get old.
And whether anyone is behind me or is willing to stay,
I shall never let fears get in my way,
for being alone is not the scary part,
my thoughts, i have down to a fine art,
I will once again, remember who I am and what I've become,
regardless of my sins and what I've done,
for every inch of me, is as precious as the most precious stone,
I will rid my mind of thoughts of being alone,
I will spread my broken wings and learn to fly,
even if darkness has taken over the light,
for every downfall, there is a way to climb back up,
& for every painful experience, that pain will never be enough,
to stop me, from everything, that I've always dreamed for,
more than happiness and love, but everything more,
So i shall bury the doubts and the restlessness down,
and I will look up to the heavens and the clouds,
and keep telling myself, that this is all just the beginning,
because in the end, I'll be the one winning, and all this was just a chapter of my life.
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"If you're passionate about what it is you do,if you really love it, then you're going to be looking for everything you can to get better at it and perfect it."
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Today was fun. Very eventful. Iceskating, Chilis, Dave and Busters, Bowling, then watching Deathnote with my boo at my house and getting all excited and geeky :D
I can't wait until this nasty weather clears up! I have so much catching up to do with a lot of people. Chris' birthday is tomorrow, and Andrew's is on Thursday .. and Anthony's is in two weeks! oh oh! and Warped tour. So much excitement. The only thing troubling me is the lack of hours i'm getting at work. I really need to save up for my car insurance.. but other than that, looks like I've already gotten a few things done from my to-do list, and I'm not even half way through the summer. :)
as usual, there are pics from my camera that I haven't posted up in the last few weeks i haven't written. Enjoy!
( ♥! )
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| Summer To-do list 08 |
[09 Jun 2008|11:21pm] |
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I do this every year. I wrote it down on paper about a month ago, and decided to share it here. Well, here it goes.
-Get my college stuff done
-Attend FIU orientation/ pick classes
-Clean out my desk
-Organize my closet
-Get my Driver's License
-Learn how to drive stick so I can drive MY Jetta.
-Paint my room
-Go to the beach atleast 5 times.
-Venetian Pools with Monica.
-Reconnect with old friends
-Have a summer fling...fall in love..:X
-Meet new people/ make new friends.
-Get closer with the group of friends i have now <3
-Watch every GOOD movie I want to watch that are coming out in theatres! Ie; Batmannn
-Travel out of Miami
- Orlando?
-Make $$$
-Read a good book or two.. or more!
-Get better at Guitar Hero. LOL
-Do something different to my hair
-Get into an Anime or show -_-
-Write songss
-Make stuff
-Hang out with High School friends
-Avoid getting a tan( although this is impossible)
-Shop. pamper myself.
-Sawgrass! IKEA! :O
-Make Rice Pudding.
-Remaining sober, and if not, drink in moderation.
-Get Pictures developed.
-Continue playing the violin & practice Vivaldi + Bach pieces
-Plant flowers
-more sleepovers
-Pull an all nighter
-Learn a sport and actually play it
-Learn to love something you didn't like before.
-Keep in touch with my daddy.
-Go to the gym atleast 3 times a week.
-Eat at the melting pot :O
-Go skinny dipping
-Attend a live show or performance
-Movie night at my house
-Cuddle with a cute boy;]
-Attend Church & get closer to God.
-Avoid DRAMA.
-Work on certain personality traits I have. ie; my moodiness and the way i freak out easily
-Befriend an enemy.
-Get a tattoo ( a meaningful one)
-Find myself and figure out what I want. Ie; with my future, family, relationships.
-Help a friend with something significant to them
-Have Grand Theft Auto nights with Archie.
-ABSTINENCE
-Party!
-Make a change. Emotionally, physically, spiritually, whichever way possible.
Well, that's all I can think of for now. Told you it wasn't out of this world. Wish me luck! :]
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[06 Jun 2008|02:37am] |
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The last few days of school have been great. I graduated today; I don't think I'll ever forget it. I can actually play the occasion like a movie all over again. I didn't cry until the very end when I was getting ready to head out of the venue, and I was saying bye to my orchestra teacher of four years. I really didn't think I'd cry. haha. I'm looking forward to a lot: summer, meeting new people, renovating my room, learning how to drive my jetta, making $$$, and pretty much accomplishing everything on my summer of 2008 to-do list(which I'm actually going to type down another day); it gets very specific. Heck, I'm even looking forward to starting school in the Fall. I must admit, the last month went by pretty slow and it's all been pretty hard, but the gratitude I've received was well worth the wait and work. I'm going to have SO much time this summer. Here's to starting new things, growing up,living to the fullest and changes.. GOOD ones.
There are A LOT of pictures from this week. Enjoy ! :P
( Last week of High School )
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| You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love.. |
[27 May 2008|12:44am] |
Interesting weekend. Def. a preview of what's to come. I'm crushing big time.. it's kind of overwhelming, I'm missing someone terribly(but that's nothing new), I've been getting a lot of attention(both wanted and unwanted), my sleeping pattern is the same as last summer's again (thanks to an interesting person who keeps me up all night), and surprisingly, I'm getting sad that I'm leaving High School for good. Don't get me wrong, I can't wait until I graduate; I can actually post exciting stuff and happenings.
thought: I wonder who actually reads this stuff, and if you do, nevermind the last entry. It was a rant. So i just put it on private.
So yeah, 12:54 a.m, school tomorrow, i should be sleeping. Sleeping's so overrated at this point. :P
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| I get by with a little help from my friends |
[18 May 2008|03:59pm] |
This week was just how i anticipated it to be. Movies, parties, sleepovers, all nighters, beach, etc. The only thing really worrying me are my reports due for AP english but other than that, the school year is really closing in. I'm starting to feel summer vacation. Twelve more school days left until i can actually experience a limitless amount of fun. I sure can't wait. It's finally hitting me that, life isn't all that bad, you just need to be more optimistic. Whatever happens happens! From now on, I'm letting God handle everything.
( picture overload )
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| Prom + slumber parties= best weekend ever. |
[10 May 2008|10:16am] |
well, in a while. :D <3 Prom was a lot of fun, and i sure did love Chris and I's last minute plan for a slumber party with Mai, Johan, and Brian :D Hooray for horrible service at the village diner, improvisations, knocking out while playing Super Smash brothers, breakfast with the best people ever and an overall great weekend. I need to do this more often.
( ♥♥♥ )
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[07 May 2008|10:56pm] |
I'm sorry I don't have a big ass, long blonde hair, and blue eyes. Sorry that I actually do like long walks on the beach and sunsets, and that I don't just say it to be romantic. I'm naturally loving and thoughtful. I think I'm really cute and funny. Oh boy am I funny. I've made him laugh, happy, excited, anxious, I mean, I think I'm pretty charming. I can be too hyper at times, but I know when to be serious when I have to be. Last time I checked, everyone had their moodswings. Some girls are even superficial and narcissistic and he's lucky he didn't have to go through that. I listen to good music and I never did mind sitting around talking about the minor things. I mean, it's not like talking about eachother's day was ever boring anyway. My hugs are great and if he really asked for it, I could've been the cheesiest/ mushiest girl he's ever met. I'm artsy but not conceited. My ego is just right. I'm happy most of the time and even when I'm not, I pretend I am so people won't have to feel so awkward. I have a good heart, even though I get angry for the stupidest things, but i know how to say sorry and when to forgive. I'm not sexy, wild, and suuper out-going, and spontaneous, but I'm always willing to try new things. I'm open-minded and I may act like a mother sometimes, but it's only because I actually care. I may cry for a lot of insignificant things but crying to me always did come from the heart. I have a gentle soul that can give limitless amount of love and although I say 'screw you' too much and 'Sorry' not enough, you'll know by my eyes that i am. I may not show my softer side but that's what you were there for anyway. To let me learn how to actually let my guard down. I loved being in bed with you but I always believe Love won over lust anytime. I see beauty in simplicity like the trees that gives birds their home, and us our oxygen; not a trail of rose petals leading to a red heart-shaped, fluffy motel bed. I pray to God and talk about my future because I know that in the end, that's what matters most, and not how many parties I've thrown up at or how many cuties I've hollered at. I'm honest most of the time, and if I do end up lying, I eventually blurt it out because of how uncomfortable it made me. I find consolation in the stars, prayers, and music and not in things hallucinogenic. I like to act tough because I feel safer, but in the end, it's always gotten me in trouble. Despite all the bad talks and doubts, I still love his big head and how argumentative he could be sometimes. I liked how he kept last week's garbage in his car and how he always got distracted so easily, yet still hear every word I would say(despite his A.D.D). I like how he wore the same t-shirt all the time and the shorts I gave him because I know he puts comfort first before looking good. I never did mind how he played the same CD's over and over again and his lack of long-hair-surfer-boyish look. To me, he was Jude Law, Tom Cruise, and Conner Oberst in my eyes 24/7. Gosh, I even liked his tight underwear even though I've always preferred boxers for guys. I even liked his big brown shoes and (don't tell him this), but as much as i said I hated the GAY Columbus plaid button-up shirt, I actually thought he was the only boy that could pull it off. If he never sees this or if he does and he just thinks of it as an insignificant public entry, Then I'd much rather wait for the next guy. Whoever it is. And if he does, Then give me a sign and I'll wait. Til then, I'm going to keep on livin' until I can fully live life to the fullest by actually being complete. for being complete to me is by having him by my side...
<3
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And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
You'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them
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A lot has happened. Good and bad. Fun and boring. Full of love and full of anger. Content and discontentment.
Approximately 37,440 minutes of school days left until I graduate. ( Not Counting weekends)
This is going to be an interesting summer.
I miss someone. I really REALLY do. The fact that I am writing on lj just to announce this shows the sincerity of my feeling. I really hope things will turn out well. I'd hate to do so, but I'm afraid I've got nothing else to do but look at the brighter side.. no matter how dim the lights are.
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[23 Feb 2008|11:47pm] |
So here I am writing my every-other-week post. This month has been quite eventful. My Busch Gardens trip was a lot of fun, I actually went to one of Ivan's ghetties after getting invited 765,734 times, Valentines was great, my school's orchestra got straight superiors in district evaluation(woo), I'm finally spoiling myself with the hard-earned money I have, Mommy's been more lenient and generous, my brother is finally starting to teach me how to drive stick-shift, Senior Luncheon made me feel even more like a senior, and I've managed to be more care-free and less paranoid than usual.
Finally.
My birthday is in 3 days. My mom is leaving town for a week the day of my birthday, so next weekend should be fun.
Eighteen babyy. :D I have nothing too big planned. Maybe hit the clubs with some friends Saturday and have a nice night out on Friday. I'm just really excited to say that I'm one year closer to really enjoying life.
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| February Air. |
[01 Feb 2008|06:21pm] |
February is a reminder of many things good and bad. This is an important month for me, atleast, it should be. Hopefully birthdays and certain holidays this month don't turn out as bad as i think. Senior activities are going to start soon and there are probably going to be many days off due to FCAT. Since my last entry my life has consisted of alot of hanging out with old/new friends, senioritis, and catching up. I miss a certain boy. I'm starting to see my biffle more often again. I'm going to start having my saturdays off every week and I'm really starting to think this month will gradually make me mature even more. Change, change, change! GOOD ONES.
Now I'm off to have a hookah night with Chris, Brian & company. I'm not staying out too late because I'm going to Busch Gardens tomorrow :D!
( To bang, or not to bang! )
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[13 Dec 2007|11:07pm] |
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and stared at the same sidewalk and fence where Danny use to sit on,throwing rocks, so he can convince me to sneak out and have our late night catching up conversations. This time, I didn't tell him to "go home" or "Danny what do you want? it's late", I actually wished he was there so I can sneak out and eat Wendy's with him on the grass while he serenades me with some lame Taking Back Sunday song. Never did I expect those nights to stop. Despite everything, you've kept me in your heart and you'll always be in mine. It's unfortunate to say that these tears won't bring you back permanently.
R.I.P
Daniel de Jesus Cespedes 5/4/88- 12/10/07
Despite the ending of a dramatic relationship, I've always loved you.
I will never forget the sneaking out, laughs, name-calling( the nice ones), the cries, milk and cookies, backseat cuddling, occasional midnight phone calls from North Carolina, screaming from the top of your lungs, dreaming big, sweet talk in spanish, and our distant-love/hate friendship.
I love you and I will truly miss you.
You really never know when life will give up on you.
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| Since my last entry. |
[09 Dec 2007|09:15pm] |
I've been really busy with school, seeing Chris became a weekly thing(Anthony a daily thing), I became part of a crew with hella fun people in it<3, Raf and I started seeing each other more, and I got a new job.
I'm still a hostess at the jap restaurant. I have to see how this Crepe Connection thing works out. ( Thanks Aly)
People talk so much shit. Funny thing is, they don't even know me and most of them are losers who have nothing better to do than worry about MY personal life.
This doesn't apply to kids in school. This is generally more for the people that are so0 envious of me and the fact that I don't spend my days off going back to work to be with their two faced "friends".
Fuck 30 something year olds that are trying to be teenagers. Fuck lesbians and busted teeth asians that love to gossip about me since i'm so wonderful, and fuck those that judge me from what they see. Things aren't always what they appear to be so stfu and go suck eachother's dick while you all play billiards and talk about my life.
Pickin' on a 17 year old. Get a life. OUTSIDE of work <3
k thanks I'm done :]
ps; if you have any comments, BAD comments, keep talkin. I love the attention <3
( Oct, Nov, Dec )
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[26 Oct 2007|06:46pm] |
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So this week was fun. The Homecoming football Game was yesterday and we lost, but it was still an awesome night. Spent it talking with friends at dolphin til it closed, then stayed at Aly's getty til like, late. Chris slept over and today we're just staying in being lazy. Yeah, I'm not going to homecoming due to ACT testing tomorrow. I need all my braincells you know ;D 25 more days til Taylor gets back! Sfghj! oh and I'm so glad first semester finished. I can relax a little more!
There's a lot of pictures. Enjoy :D!
( nerd, western, spirit day pictures )
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